I saw your post on the Vampiric Community Message Board [about wanting to be
made into a vampire]. What are your reasons for wanting to become a vampire?
Have you read any of my website?
It's not at all like in the movies or books. Sure, I understand. I'd like
to be THAT way, too, but I'm not. You are young; you have the whole world open
to you. You can be anything that you choose if you apply yourself and try hard
to work toward that goal. But being a vampire is not what it seems like. It's
a life full of frustrations, and complications, stress and worry. We are as
human as you are. Our lives are just as ratty and boring as anyone else's life.
It's not what you are that counts, but how you choose to be. Do you want a
life full of interesting things? Do you want to have power and influence over
others? To be charming and desirable? To have wealth, health, and longevity?
Being a vampire won't automatically cause these things to happen. You, yourself,
must strive to obtain these things for yourself. Do you want to be interesting
and different? All you'll be is different. People, if they know, will think
you're a freak, or that you're just a mental case; they won't believe. If they
do believe, they won't understand. It's a pain. You lose friends, not gain
them. You go through life struggling with yourself. There are times when you
would be without any sources, and what will you do then, but suffer? You can't
just go out and "take" someone, or hypnotize them to give you blood.
It doesn't work that way. You mess up, you have the Law after you, wanting
to put you in jail, or a psychiatric hospital, where your needs DEFINITELY won't
get met. So you suffer, and hate the one that turned or awakened you. I don't
even know if "turning" someone is possible. For all I know, drinking blood
itself is addictive. You have all sorts of unpleasant problems that go with
it. Migraines, sensitivities, gastric problems. You'll be late for work on
more than one occasion because you can't leave the house until you find your
sunglasses, or you are vamping out too bad to make an appearance at work. That
doesn't look good on your record. Bosses don't like that. They put little
black marks by your name in your employee file.
And should you become tired of being this way, then too bad. You're stuck with
it. Once the novelty wears off, or you decide that it's not the life for you,
after all, then what? Life goes on. And you hate it worse than you may have
hated it before you were a vampire. Do you really want to feel strung out,
shakey, ill-at-ease and constantly, endlessly thirsty all the time? Do you
want to place value on another person by how much blood you think they have
in them? That may sound funny to you, but it's not. It's not funny at all.
It's sad. Listen to me, I know this stuff. I live with it. It's not cool.
Ahhh, you're young, you won't listen to me. I know. It's the way of the young
not to listen to those who are older and have lived through the things they
speak of. I don't know what else to say. Either you will listen to me, or
you won't. I'm not telling you this stuff to be a spoilsport, or to be mean
and nasty, but so that you won't: A.) ruin your life with it, or B.) spend
your life wishing to be something that you think is great, but isn't. If you
never get to be a vampire, then you have not missed out on anything great and
wonderful. Count yourself fortunate.
Please feel free to write me back.
With utmost sincerity,
Sanguinarius: The Vampire Support Page
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