Since there appears to be some confusion, let me clarify that the "The Author" is a *completely different* person from me, SphynxCatVP. If I had written this article, it would have my name in the author slot, and the contact area at the bottom wouldn't have a link to someone else's website. :P
COMING TO TERMS
One of the first things any newly awakened psi will want to do is confirm
that they are indeed just that. This is something that one must discover on
their own. It is strongly recommended that you go out and ask around, read
up on the subject, but with one thing in mind; everything you hear and read
should be taken as hearsay, and NOT fact. Only you, the reader, can decide
in the end what you are and what you aren't.
This page is to help point out what I read when it came to becoming awakened.
Remember, this is merely opinions, and never 100% fact, for proving such a
thing is not possible as of yet (as far as I know). Also, it is important
to realize that just because something happens in one way for someone, it
doesn't mean that this is the pattern for everyone. With that in mind, here
is what I dug up...
WHAT TO LOOK FOR
There are warning signs that happen to many psi's before they awaken. Some,
but not all, include:
- A stressful or painful moment in your life
- Clinical depression (normally uni-polar)
- Prone to sickness suddenly (get sick multiple times in quick succession)
- Drinks with citric acid start to cause stomach cramps
- Sunlight is tolerable, but is more sensitive than before
- A feeling of unexplained emptiness
- Strong sense of how those around you are feeling
- Those around you feel tired or cranky for no real reason
These are the less-obvious symptoms that many psi-vamps experience when awakening.
If you missed what awakening itself entails, read the section about how I
awakened. More obvious symptoms include; feeling energy about you, seeing
auras, and other psychic phenomena which is out of the ordinary.
WHAT TO EXPECT
What should feel like when you awaken? Most, including myself, are tired,
depressed, and even have pains. This is due to your need to take in energy
is making you drained. To alleviate the problem, a psi will have to feed.
One excellent way of determining if you're a psi-vamp is by trying to feed.
If you feel a significant difference in your attitude and overall pep, you
could indeed be a psychic vampire.
Being a psi-vamp isn't all about seduction and secrecy. It's a difficult
process of learning how to survive. You don't become immortal. You don't transform
into Brad Pitt or Tom Cruise. And no, Anne Rice to call you to congratulate
you on your transformation. It's you and you alone. There are those out there
that are willing to give assistance, but in the end, it's you who makes the
decisions. I had to go through it, as did every psi out there that now has
to feed. It's not easy, but it's a process that in the end works out for the
WHAT IS PSYCHIC VAMPIRISM?
In all generality, a Psychic Vampire is someone who is incapable of producing
the energy needed to survive. This life energy, also known as pranic energy,
is naturally created by the body. Those who cannot create this energy must
feed off of others who can in order to keep their levels of pranic energy
stable. Psychic vampires accomplish this through mental abilities (empathy)
which let them tap into a life source and take in their energy for his/her
own. There are blood vampires as well. They are known as sanguinarian vampires,
and also have an energy deficiency. Instead of feeding through psychic means,
though, they get their energy through blood, which is the highest physical
source of pranic energy.
The means for obtaining this energy is discussed in more detail on the section
about feeding. For a rough idea, though, just look at it like this:
All normal humans (many vampires call them "nils") have enough
energy to live well. If this energy were measured, we could say that it fills
an entire glass (strictly for a visual, not an actual measurement). Vampires,
blood or psi, have glasses which are not nearly filled enough. Imagine a vampire's
glass with a small crack on it's bottom that leaks slowly. To keep our glasses
full, we take the excess in a human's glass. Those that we take from can fill
their glass back up, and our glasses are now full. We are happy and content
until our glasses leak enough to make our glass noticeably empty, and we go
through the cycle again.
WHY PSI AND NOT BLOOD?
So why would one vampire with this deficiency feed psychically and not through
blood? Basically, you could look at sanguinarian and psychic vampires as two
different races. We are born separate, and in that respect, have individual
traits, needs, and practices. A sanguinarian vampire normally does not have
psychic abilities, and feeds strictly through blood. In that respect, psychic
vampires have empathic (psychic) abilities naturally, and feed this way because
it comes naturally. There are those who feed both through blood and psychic
means. Both practices get the job done, and are equally rewarding.
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