You yourself state that sanguinarianism (the new "-ism" of
the OVC, it seems), for you, is a psychological condition. Have you
ever sought therapy? Have you ever tried to get off that addiction to
the taste of blood you have? Or rather... do you want to stop licking
the blood off other people's shallow cuts/lancet pricks you made? If
the answer is a sound "yes" - why do you classify yourself
as a sanguinarian? If the answer is a sound "no" - why don't
you admit to yourself that you're a haematophiliac? Is it that bad for
your ego to admit that you just like blood and the taste of it? Is your
desire to fit in with a small group of people whose lives are not exactly
nice because of their as of yet undiagnosed condition so big that you
have to fool yourself into believing you are what you clearly know you
aren't, if you're of sound enough mind? Does it give you some sort of
feeling of being "special" to state that you're a "sanguinarian"
although you yourself know it's all in your head?
I don't know how much time you have spent with trying to figure out
what it is that is wrong with you - but trust me, most of us who've
been dealing with the whole blood-issue for more than a decade went
through pretty much every possible explanation for what we experience.
We've been doubting our sanity, we went to therapists, we got on anti-psychotic
medication, we tried every iron supplement out there, thought that we
might have pica, considered the possibility that we were just plainly
psychologically addicted to blood, went on withdrawals, denied ourselves
any contact with blood, were scared of ourselves... and then people
come prancing in and pretty much state it's a psychological thing, and
if we don't think it is psychological, we have to have proof.
Are you aware of the fact that diabetes wasn't recognised a few decades
ago as a legitimate medical condition? Are you aware of the fact that
science, especially the medical sciences, are discovering new diseases
and genetic conditions constantly? Not to mention epigenetic factors.
[Inherited changes in appearance and genetics. ~Sphynx]
Also - are you aware of the fact that there is no single "cause"
we can point at as of now? Yes, for you, it is a simple equation: It's
all psychological. But have you ever considered that just because it
is psychological for you doesn't mean that it is a mere psychological
disorder for others? If you state that *YOUR* desire for blood is nothing
but a psychological issue, then it's okay. But you know what? People
on here have been actually suffering from this condition which you so
nonchalantly term "psychological". You can satisfy your want
(as opposed to "Need") for blood with licking up the stuff
you get from yourself. Some of us can't. We tried, we continuously try,
but it doesn't work.
If you're so adverse to the concept of "sanguinarianism"
being an as of yet unrecognised medical condition, and want to tell
those of us who've been living with this condition far longer than you
have, with all the doubts and insecurities and all the self-loathing
etc. - find a BDSM community in your area and live out your haematophilia.
Suck blood from willing subs, consider yourself as an enlightened person
who has the answers to it all - but, frankly, do us a favour and leave
those of us who actually have a problem that severely impacts our lives
alone. It is great that your version of blood-drinking is nothing but
a psychological quirk of yours - in fact, I think it's great. You can
wean yourself off that addiction of yours, and frankly, I think you
should. Then again, you would lose out on that certain "coolness"/"kink"-factor.
You might not be aware of this, but those of us who actually have suffered/suffer
because of the whole blood-thing would, for most of the time, greatly
prefer not to be like that. You can drink your own blood and it's making
you happy? Great!
But you're falling into the trap of thinking that just because YOU
experience your vampirism as a purely psychological addiction, others
should work the same way as you do. And this, frankly, is just not the
way it is.
I'd recommend you get into the BDSM scene and live out your fantasies/"addictions"
the way you feel comfortable with. Telling a bunch of people who have
16+/20+/30+/40+ years of experience with themselves and did a lot of
soul-searching, went through barrages of medical tests, considered every
possibility including yours, tried to ignore their Need and ended up
in hospitals is not exactly the polite way of dealing with us.
As I said - your want for blood is psychological, and I'm actually
glad that you found that out. However, that doesn't make you a sanguinarian.
That makes you something that likes blood. Sangs, on the other hand,
*NEED* blood. And no, I am not talking about "we will die if we
don't get blood". You should have read a bit more instead of jumping
to conclusions of your own and applying them to the rest of us.
