Since there appears to be some confusion, let me clarify that the one known as "The Author" is a *completely different* person from me, SphynxCatVP. If I had written this article, it would have my name in the author slot, and the contact area at the bottom wouldn't have a link to someone else's website. :P
All throughout my adolescent years, I was naturally fascinated with things psychic
related. I found that I had inborn talent that, with practice, allowed me to
successfully dream lucidly, astrally project, and manipulate my chakras. For
a few years this continued. Though difficult, it was very rewarding. Then, less
than one year ago, some very stressful and difficult times followed. With counseling,
I soon overcame these problems and went on to lead a healthy lifestyle. After
six months, though, I sunk into a deep depression. My immune system weakened
and I was sick almost every day. I felt that I was missing something; a void
that I wanted to fill but didn't know how. I tried with food, the Bible (the
Author has yet to find his faith), women, entertainment...but all to no avail.
Then, after a few weeks, he was online when someone whom he didn't know contacted
him and said that they could sense he was awakened. I did not know how to react
to this, especially since at the time I had no idea what he meant. He tried
to explain it, but I soon thought him to be some odd little fellow and left
it at that. Of course, I am an easily curious man, and I began to research into
what that odd little fellow referred to as "psychic vampires".
I looked at all the resources I could, and found that all had pointed to my
symptoms; the depression, a hit to your immune system, that feeling of needing
to fill something. From what the sources said, I was a newly awakened psi-vamp
that was drained. Basically, they were trying to tell me that something in my
life knocked loose this once latent occurrence found in a very small percentage
of the populous; a deficiency of energy. Psi-vamps are those which are unable
to produce enough of their own natural energy (life energy, also known as pranic
energy), and have to feed off of people, nature, or any other source of this
energy to keep themselves up to par. This explained my drained feeling, for
I had yet to know how and why to feed. After learning all of this, the Author
remained very skeptical. I recommend this to anyone. No one can tell you what
you are except you. It's a self discovery that will take time, but will produce
answers
So, with doubts in my mind, I delved in deeper. True, my practices years before
with astral projection and such suggested this possibility of empathic abilities,
but the idea was too outrageous for me at the time. I went into related chat
rooms, read more and more on the subject, and most importantly; I tried it out.
I went out and I tried to feed. The rush was incredible. It filled that void
that I had in a snap. I remained proud, though. I wasn't yet going to give in
to the idea that I was a psi-vamp. The feeding having worked could have been
nothing more than something in my head. You know...you want it bad enough, you
think it happens. So I continued to practice and speak with others about it.
The learning experience was a very fulfilling one. I didn't find any answers
at first, but with time they came. I found them inside, and I learned my true
nature of being. It isn't an easy finding. Hell, I wasn't fully convinced of
my true calling until a few weeks ago, when my abilities grew to the point where
I knew they couldn't be in my head. So here I am, the Author, hoping to share
what I've learned to help you in your search for answers. Best of luck to you
on your quest for answers.
Sincerely,
"The Author"
This article is presented as part of an ongoing effort to present other views outside of, as well as within, the online vampire community. Those of us who consider ourselves vampiric don't always look at things from the same viewpoint due to our life experiences. As such, the views and opinions contained in this article are entirely those of the author(s), and may not necessarily be shared by SphynxCatVP. The webmaster is not under obligation to update or otherwise keep current the contents of this article. Most importantly, only you can decide for yourself whether this article or any of the author(s) other views are useful or applicable to you - you are responsible for using your own reasoning and judgement, so judge wisely.
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