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I guess there is hell of stuff I could chat about, but I will stick to my
all-time favorite topic: donors. These people are like males: can't get along
with them but what do without them? Oh hell, not that I don't know of an alternative
to males... but none to donors, anyhow. (And anyhow, all of my donors so far
were male, so what!)
I have not met one of them in my life that had no thoughts in the back of his
head. All of them had an agenda. Do they really believe you are a vampire? Not
any of those I met. But I don't give a damn, in most cases, as long as they
are nice, willing, consensual and somewhat stable.
I had a long-term donor whom I had met in a complete mainstream club. We even
moved in the same apartment. Not that I considered him to be my boyfriend, but
I considered him... a friend. He was a nice guy at first, but he screwed up
with the time. At first, I did not notice it, then I did not get what his problem
was. But then I finally got the idea. From the very start until we parted, he
only had in mind to have a somewhat "exotic chick" that he could show off with.
He did what he did to please me only, and in the hope that someday, he would
get me into bed. Did he tell me? No. Waited until he screwed up instead of resolving
the problem.
Another guy was a piercing fetishist. He also donated willingly, and he was
a good friend for a longer while. I don't know if he really believed that I
was a vampire... in his case it was likely. His motivation was not so much donating
also. Of course, he was curious about me, having studied occultism and vampires
since early age. But donating was more about the needles for him.
The worst that ever happened to me was a vampire fan of the worst kind. Virgin,
34 years old, fat and childish. He was not even actually a donor. :-) He wanted
to be one but when time for supper came, he got so scared that he completely
cramped and I could not get that damn needle in, only at second attempt. And
then he started believing he was a vampire himself. Believe me, he was the most
un-vampiric guy you'd ever meet on this planet, and so messed in his mind with
vampire RPG that he really believed becoming a vampire would make him immortal,
a great wizard, erase all his problems at once... you know the rest. *LOL* And
when I told him he was not a Toreador, he got completely screwed up.
Another offer for donation I received was from a guy who insisted that me and
my sis Diane would simultaneously feed on him. We never took the offer. Guess
how this sounded in our ears! Another offer from a guy in the BDSM scene was
adequate again. He believed it was a fetish of mine, but I thought, let him
believe, saves mucho explanations.
What's the aim of this me babbling of all these guys? I believe no donor does
the thing for just being a very friendly human being. They want some gratification,
and that is what I always keep in mind. I only want to know what they expect
from it. After all, they may screw up when they don't get what they expected.
If someone's motivation is sex in return, like you are a junkie who would do
anything for a shot, I decline. If he is from the BDSM area, it's ok with me,
I have had good experiences with the people there. After all, some of them really
enjoy it. But s/he may have something queer in mind, like "When a vampire bites
me, I become a vampire", or something. It has happened too often with me. Some
do it just to please you, faking interest in vampires to get laid from someone
with a sinister or exotic reputation (if you fit the image). Just get it straight,
you know, the motivation and whether it is ok with you, so that you don't end
up facing strange demands you did not expect. I am sure everyone has such experiences,
we are all human beings, and some of us are really dweebs. :-) But hell, that's
mine. With a little luck, you will recognize some of the characters from your
own experience and have a good laugh from it. If not, well, there is still a
message... there is, isn't it?!
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